My fathers mother was a JW all of her life and she die two years ago at the age of 97. My mother and father divorced when I was three and my mother remarried when I was 5. Turns out my mother and grandmother hated each other. So my mother raised us kids religion free. She figured we could work out the God issues on our own. It hurt her alot when I became a dud. Happily she is relieved I finally got past it.
But because I had no prior knowlegde of religion everything I "know" is JW based and therefore tainted. Aside from some very basic facts like the order of the books, their names and writers I treat as suspect everything I was taught as a JW. I read some of the scriptural debates here and have to shake my head. And as a rule I don't worry about the spiritual aspect of life anymore. I figure most everyone who has ever lived has had it wrong anyway. I'd rather think nothing about these matters than get sucked into some useless debate no one can prove this side of the grave.
My goal is to leave this place better than I found it. To have been an asset to creation in some small way. That's enough for me, the rest seems pointless. Maverick