Although it is not him, it is our 12 years old daughter. We discussed what he would do if i were incapacitated and our daughter needed a blood transfusion would he refuse and he said no. ( I do want that in writing still)
Now she is having a tonsillectomy, adnoidectomy and the back of an earring removed from her ear lobe( don't ask, I feel like a mother failure enough already!) This surgery has a high risk for bleeding out at a couple stages. So there is a real chance this could come into play.
On top of me being stressed over her already being congested, my migraine now out of control, and I currently have a really bad cold ( hopefully nothing more) I can't even sleep thinking about the possibilities ( and the pain tonight) and the thought of her pain. I don't usually get this freaked out about a medical procedure. But then this isn't usual circumstances, really.
I know I will be there ( unless forbidden due to a contagious germ) and if blood is needed, it could be 48 hours, or 7 days later after scabs fall off. So really I shouldn't be so concerned. I will sign papers needed. He did promise me after all. ( Though his promises I am still not completely convinced of, but 90% sure at the point.)
Part of my "unreasonable" worry comes from personally knowing of three local children that died of blood loss due to a local DR that was negligent and didn't stop the bleeding or transfuse. ( This Dr killed himself the day before his malpractice trial about six years ago) I've known about my child's current Dr for a long time , and know the nurses trust him. So I should not be thinking of this, but you can't just "un know:" scary stuff like that.
I will be glad when this week is over. I hope I will feel trust in my husband. I hope he will show evidence that I should and can trust him in matters like this.