Epiphany : a usually sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something (2) : an intuitive grasp of reality through something (as an event) usually simple and striking (3) : an illuminating discovery b : a revealing scene or moment
Sounds like you are describing an epiphany.
I have them a lot more now that I am untangling the gnarly fingers of the WTBTS from my tired brain.
My quest is to feel better and to make the most of my quickly passing life. I'm 45 now and it's going so damn fast. I want to get back to school and get a skill that will help me use some talent I must have somewhere. I don't want to work in retail the rest of my days.
I want to travel some. I know that. Want to continue on my good journey with my beloved companion, Andy. I want to understand life better. I don't aspire to find absolute truth in anything. I only hope my designer will fill me in when I leave this life. To me absolute truth is the love I have for my children, grandchildren, Andy, family and friends. Absolute truth is the wonder and magic of babies and children and complex and amazing teenagers and adults. Truth is the beauty in nature. Truth is pain we all experience. Truth is: I believe because of the complexity of our world, us and the deep love we all feel, I do believe this isn't all there is. I really hope it's not all there is.
I guess the quest is to get the most out of this life. Help more than hurt. Enjoy the love and the beauty while I'm here. To give love and to be loved. To gather wisdom. All cliche' I know but then life seems to be a cliche' anymore.