It’s in Dutch but I can attest to the person’s situation back in the day. His father and mine were relatively close and both abusive tyrants. He wrote this autobiography in the style of a romance novel (changing the characters) but I know the story is personal. I hope it can be translated.
Book title translation: “black light, white shadow”
Zwart licht, witte schaduw
Jonathan Goddyn
https://www.bol.com/nl/p/zwart-licht-witte-schaduw/9300000027608137/