A sister that I knew has passed away recently. We weren't friends, but back in the days, she, and her family, were among the people I would always talk to at the hall and assemblies. She was the type of sister that was kind and probably had more love to share than most people I know. Anyways... I know I will at least make a card, the thing is... I feel that I should go to the funeral out of respect, yet, I haven't been to the meetings in years (since I faded out).
In reality, I think I'll go, its just that I never realized how much pain going back there for 30 minutes will cause me. To have to sit there and hear them use such occasion as an infomercial. I already feel pain about knowing that I won't see this sitter again (in this life at least), funerals are supposed to be a time where you meet with old time friends and family and I feel this will be anything but that. I'll probably get the cold shoulder and all.
But on the other hand, I want to be stronger than this group. I have values and a moral code that I am not about to break for them. I believe that Funerals are sacred, regardless of the religion. That woman has been kind to me over the years and I know I will regret it even more if I don't go there.
Well, seems like I made up my mind while pouring my heart out on this forum.
Anyways, thanks for being there you all.