It was a year ago today that my life changed completely. I'll never forget it. I had zero friends in the KH and was never included in the "guys" drinks, football games, parties etc. My wife was in hospital. I was looking after our little one on my own (which was actually really nice). I remember I was about a third of the way through Crises Of Conscience by Ray Franz and decided to take my little one to a park in Liverpool called St.Johns gardens. As she was running around picking up pine cones and running among the flowers it just hit me.... i cant keep making excuses for this religion. At this time i still believed in God, i still believed in Jehovah but i was 100% convinced that this religion isnt "the truth". And more and more things started to make sense.
1914 clearly was wrong. They've been wrong about many things before. In fact, every prediction they've ever made.
Blood should be a matter of personal choice.
Shunning is the exact opposite of Christianity
There's no way to leave with your reputation in tact
Although i have many "brothers" and "sisters" in "the truth", i dont trust a single one of them with my doubts
Maybe we're supposed to grow old and die. Everything dies. Plants, animals, even stars and planets.
As you will all know from your own experiences, i immediately felt sad, scared, angry, happy, free and worried. What would i do now? I cant just leave, my father in law is an elder. The things i've learned from Ray Franz, how can i explain to JW's what i know and where i learned it without being accused of being an apostate?
So i signed up to this site. I didnt post right away but i read and read and read. Many of you here helped me more than my actual friends and actual family did, who now shun me, (yes, i mean you Toesup, Mr Flipper, Dubstepped and Chook).
It's been a crazy year, but one i'll always remember.