So, 8 months after I realized TTAT and 7 months removed from completely walking away from jw land, I think I'm almost ready to find out what it is I actually believe. After all of the research I did while exiting the jws, I took a much needed break from any religious/spiritual or whatever things. Now I think I'm ready to explore, see what's out there. The only thing I know 100% is I want no part of religion, organized or otherwise. I realized that is not for me. It will definitely be a journey, but I'm looking forward to it. It feels good to be open now though.