I've been at this quest for a good part of two years. I've experienced every negative feeling a human body and mind can experience. I have, at times, become consumed. So much so that I have entire weeks where I have no work to show for. Fortunately those times are behind me. Yet, I press on because I am convinced I've seen the real personalities pop out every now and then and I can see they are genuinely the persons I felt in love with.
One of my kids is turning 13 soon and she is starting to show that teenager attitude, where we have less and less in common. One of the things we still do together is watch the X-files. She got hooked on it so I make it a point that no one can watch another episode unless we watch it all together.
Mulder and Scully are constantly fighting each other's assessments while Mulder continues to feed on this hope of ever uncovering the truth. While he is convinced that he knows what this truth kind of looks like, he can not get his partner to come close to his position. In some occasion, the question has been presented to him... what are you going to do once you find it?
That got me thinking... what would you do, if suddenly, in a short span of time, all the people you care about wake up from this cult. You may spend some time healing by sharing with each other what the journey felt like but eventually it will be over. Sure I agree that the best revenge is living a happy life but I am not talking about revenge. I am talking about coming to the sudden realization that you no longer have a fight. Something that you did for so long that it became a habit, a way of life. Where at times you have lost the real sense of purpose and you were just looking for the next WT fiasco to analyze with no real idea as to how that would help your goal.
Some have resorted to doing charity. That seems like an idea. I just wonder how you can take in anything that involves a "cause" without the fear that you are going into the next Watchtower.
Has anyone asked themselves the same question?