I hope this is the right place to put this.
So, I joined this site a while ago because I was looking for conversation and to help people. I think at the time I actually needed to be around the kinds of people that I had grown up with as well. I didn't participate when I initially joined because I didn't understand the site. I still don't. But I know how to put in the work to learn how an individual website works. I found another site that had a format I was familiar with and also was very active. I started participating there. Then they shut down without a by your leave. Gah!
I came back here for support. But again... didn't stay long and didn't participate much. For much the same reason. This-and-that and drama blah blah blah on another site and I gave up on JW or exJW everything for a while. There was some personal drama at the same time. I had a relationship that ended on a very bad note. So... I went a bit hermit and stopped doing much with internet social networks of any kind. I hunkered down to focus on myself and working figuring out what kind of person I want to be. I worked on forming healthier life habits.
None of this is telling you much about me... I'll get there. I was born and raised a JW. I left when I was 18-20, almost right after I got baptized. Strangely that was the last straw for me. I won't go into all that here and now. It was right after that, that I started showing symptoms of extreme PTSD. My little sister told a lie about me and most of my JW family shunned me. Well, if they were going to shun me for a lie then I might as well tell them the truth. Anyone on the fence before was done with me when they found out I'm not Christian/hetero-normative.
About 20 years later and I find that I have gotten over most of the PTSD, I am happier than ever since I saw the last of my JW family shun me, and even though I have come a very long way the JW programming still has some effect on me. I feel and take on responsibilities that aren't mine. This is what I'm working on at the moment. There are a lot of other things that non-JW people just don't get and can't have explained to them.
I feel the need for conversation again... and good conversation. This site has that. You may or may not hear from me on the boards though because I'm gonna do it right this time. I'm going to hunker down and figure out how this site works best. I'll definitely be lurking. I'll chime in when I can and when I want to.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello and let you know who I am. In the past people have called me 'jwun' (sounds Korean, which is kinda awesome) or 'undub'. I like both. I'm not picky. Whatever will be, will be.