Hi All,
When you left the Borg, did any of you feel that God was dissapointed in you? I know in my heart that I am not turning my back on God, but my mind says something else (and so do the people in the religion). It's weird, when I was a Catholic, I NEVER felt guilty for missing Mass, I KNEW that God loved me. But ever since I became a Witness, I question his love all the time. I feel like I am not good enough, actually that is why almost didn't get baptized. I felt that I was not worthy of it. Is it weird to feel this way? Did any of you feel guilt for leaving or trying to think on your own? Will it ease up over time?
Also, it has been almost 4 months since I have been to a meeting, I just couldnt take it anymore...I work many hours and have been through an emotional roller coaster of health problems (both myself and husband) family issues, etc...I just could not make the meetings and was sick of the "where have you been" instead of "how have you been", although there are an exception of people whom I love dearly. I just cannot tell them that I don't go anymore, I don't want to lose them as friends...but it's ridiculous if they shun me, for what..not going to meetings!?!.
My husband saw someone from our old hall at a fast food drive through and they asked how the new cong. was, he didn't lie, he said "we haven't been going" well they stepped back and then dissapeared! Someone else rang him up. I don't want to make a conclusion from this one episode, but does that seem "strange" to anyone else here? Neither one of us are DF OR DA, we just havent gone because the stress of life and stress to "always do better, your not good enough, etc..." got to us. I am now awaiting the bombardment of questions from people I havent heard from, since I KNOW that the whole cong. now knows we don't go!
All I can say is: OI