Yeah I watched another Hallmark movie tonite,,,,,,,,I think it was called , A Painted House, or The Painted House? Of course it is my designated job in our house to cry at all the sentimental movies, and darn this one did it for me as expected. I cried even harder at the hallmark greeting cards commercials..........( the one about the old father who got a card from his grown daughter,,omg)
It made me cry because it reminded me of the bond my youngest son has with his Pappaw and their love of their old red tractor.
My son was sleeping by me tonite, after a hard days play with the cousins at Pappaws house, it had been awhile since he has seen his Pap,,,,,,,he was off working.
My kids always laugh at me for crying over these movies, and it is predictable that the floodgates of tears are going to make a show when watching them. The movies , and other ones like these, just make me think of family values, what is really important and how lucky I am to have my family.
I looked at my 8 yr old son and just held his little hand as he slept, looking at all the cuts , scraps and wear and tear on him at such a young age,,,,,,,,,all that playing takes it toll ,,,,lol. Then I saw some of the scars he had when he was a little sick baby boy in the NICU, and how those scars will always be with him. It made me so thankful to have the chance to be a mother, and it made me wish the days would drag by , like the hot days of our Louisiana summers. This summer will be one of soaking all of my childrens glory in , to bottle it up and save it for a day they are no longer by my side.
My oldest Jake is almost a man,,,,,,,, I think soon he will be leaving me to go start his life, a few years from now, but looking back on the day he was born , it seems time has gone by so fast and to think of only three years maybe of him being here, is not alot of time left.
My daughter is 10, she is changing from a little girl to a young lady,,,,although her body is changing , she is fighting it ever step of the way with her tomboy ways,,,,,,,, I think she rolls in the dirt to detract from the fact that she is a girl.........lol. I look at her barbies in our bathtub and realise , one day they will not be there anymore,,,,,,,,,maybe for my granddaughters , but they will not be there forever for my Kelly. She will put them away and move on to other things.
I guess watching movies is one of my favorite things, and even the corney movies, make you stop and think sometimes just how blessed you really are,,,,,, I really feel blessed, even thru the bad times in my life, Life is beautiful, it is too short, and it makes me see that each and every day shouldnt be wasted with our families, especially our children. One day you are holding them close to your heart on your lap and the next you are watching them grow further and further away , as it was intended to be. But a mother's heart I think just keeps them there ,,, Even when Jake, Kelly and Chance are grown, to big to sit on my lap, or sleep on my bed, or be in my house everyday,,,,,,,,I will always remember them at every age they have been,,,,,, the memory of it all is forever in my heart. Our memories are precious, and I think it is good for us to open the door and go in,,,,,,,and take a look around at our memories ,,,,,,,, it just makes us see how precious time really is with our children.