I just watched the movie Apostacy and thereby, visited an ancient feeling of mine. There were various moments where you could tell that the mother and even the “faithful” daughter were bottled up inside with many thoughts and feelings left unsaid. Their basic, normal, human morality immediately tells them that the proper way to act is not that of the WT. Then, this is immediately followed by the thought that their heart is treacherous, that THEY are flawed. Being the only true religion, WT must be right! And so, years go by where you live in the misery of knowing something is wrong and you keep telling yourself that it must be you.
Convincing yourself that the better part of you is arrogant, evil and prideful, the only possible result is depression and constant sadness.
Considering the above, I find the following quote quite relevant:
don’t give yourselves to brutes - men who despise you - enslave you - who regiment your lives - tell you what to do - what to think and what to feel! […] You are not machines! You are not cattle! You are men! You have the love of humanity in your hearts! […] “the Kingdom of God is within man” - not one man nor a group of men, but in all men! In you! You, the people have the power […]. The power to create happiness! You, the people, have the power to make this life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure. – Charlie Chaplin, The Great Dictator