The Awakening...

by Cassiline 5 Replies latest jw friends

  • Cassiline

    Wish we all came with these 'directions' attached, at a young age...If I had known this all as a child... The Awakening...

    A time comes in your life when you finally get it...when, in the midst
    of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and
    somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...Enough! Enough
    fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child
    quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to
    look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to
    change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over
    the next horizon.

    You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale
    endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with
    you... and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
    You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone
    will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and
    that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

    You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself... and in
    the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
    You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did
    to you - or didn't do for you - and you learn that the only thing you can
    really count on is the unexpected.

    You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they
    say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that
    everything isn't always about you.

    So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself... and
    in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
    You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as
    they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and
    in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
    You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You
    begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand

    You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to
    discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have
    bought into to begin with.

    You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing
    and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for
    your next fix.

    You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the
    outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the
    foundation upon which you must build a life.

    You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the
    world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn that the only
    cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get
    burned at the stake.

    Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they
    really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does
    not mean lonely.

    You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn
    to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of
    setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

    You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing
    things over and ignoring your needs.

    You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for
    it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more
    water, and take more time to exercise.

    You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you
    take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter
    fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

    You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you
    deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

    You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that
    wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making
    it happen.

    More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need
    direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can
    do it all alone, and that it's OK to risk asking for help.

    You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn
    to step right into and through your fears because you know that
    whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the
    right to live life on your own terms.

    You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a
    cloud of impending doom.

    You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you
    think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting,
    good people... and you learn not to always take it personally.

    You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always
    somebody's fault. It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you
    are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

    You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment
    must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you
    and poison the universe that surrounds you.

    You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple
    things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the
    earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a
    soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

    Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you
    make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever
    settle for less than your heart's desire.

    You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open
    to every wonderful possibility.

    Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep
    breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you
    can. If this has been posted before sorry, the search function is not working at this time.

  • bikerchic

    Aaaaaaaahhh YES! THEN YOU EXHALE! Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep
    breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you

    Then life begins on your terms, you truely become a human BEing.

    Cheers to all who embark on the journey.


  • MerryMary

    This came at a time when my new years resolution is to make a concerted effort to find out who I really am. I'm turning the big 5-0 this year and I think it's about time I awakened from the cacoon that I have been hiding in for all of these years. I am learning there are things I really like about myself and other things that definately need to change. I'm copying this and posting it on my bulletin board in my office. It's just the right thing to help me on my journey.


  • cruzanheart

    Thank you, Cassi. I really needed to read that at just this moment.


  • LyinEyes

    Cassi............. thank you so much for that ....... I too needed to hear that.

    I just now found the word that I am experiencing right now,,,,, thanks to your post,,,,,, I am having an
    "Awakening"....... which is a wonderful experience.......not always easy but so important to emotional maturity. For so long I felt stuck at 18 ,,,,,,,,, mentally,,,,,,, and every single word in your post is true.

    I struggle with fear especially, fear of everything........ fear of the past, the present and the future.

    Fear I will burn the biscuits, fear that someone will die again, fear of making more mistakes, fear of one day feeling happy then the bottom will fall out. For so long I have been afraid to let fear go away, because i was so afraid to let myself be happy and enjoy the day. It was like if I stay afraid it will protect me from the unexpected tragedey that I assume would happen , I figured well , it wont ever catch me off guard again.

    I wasted so many years being this way,,,,,,,,,I am slowly learning that I don't have that control. I am cheating myself out of happiness and life because of this fear.

    I love the things that post says, about loving yourself your body, taking care of yourself, that you are not at fault for everything.

    It spoke volumns,,,,,,,,, I want to make a copy of that and put it in my journal for days when I forget about my Awakening and fall back into the same pattern of thinking.

    THanks Cassi,,,,,,,,, you would be surprized to know how good that post made me feel. It made me want to literally straighten my back up and sit upright and say,,,,,,,,,,hey I am there...... I am healing.

    (((((((((((hugs Cassi))))))))) tell Max hi,,,,,,,,,kiss the kids......... love ya girl,,,,,, Dede

  • Shutterbug

    Let me add my thanks to you for taking the trouble to post this. You have, no doubt, helped anyone who takes the time to read all of the wisdom contained on this piece. Thanks again, Bug

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