I really need some help here: my grandfather (an elder) is dying, and will die within a week probably. I am 22, student and faded. I still have very good contacts with my family. But I am so nervous about the funeral! He is a very famous and kind elder and hundreds of people will attend his, of course very JW, funeral. What am I going to say to all them? Out of principle I refuse to pray with my parents before dinners (when Im visiting them) and just say 'enjoy your meal' when they say amen, but can I just keep my eyes open during my grandfathers funeral, especially as my own dad will pray for his dad? What do I say to all these people when they tell me that its such a comfort that I'll see him in paradise again? (not many people know that I faded as my grandparents live in another town and they only know me as the little girl that always visited the kh when i was staying over at their place, and Im sure they don't know as of course my grandfather will not blurt out to everyone that I faded).
What do I do?