Hi Everyone!!
How's life in X-JW hell?? hahahahahaha. I left 'the bullsh!t' almost one year ago and I know how crazy the road out can be. When you leave the J.W.'s they put the "funk" in dysfunctional. I've replied a handful of times to threads and posts here, but usually try to avoid spending too much time dwelling on the past.....Even though I say this, I've found myself in a deep depression a lot of times. I realize the source of it though. Basically, when you go through the wave of emotions involved in leaving the JW's (emotions involved even before leaving, such as discovering that everything you were taught is a lie) there is residual emotional poison. Anyway, I'm not here to bring up any specific J.W. issues. Plenty of you have done that already. This post is about learning to let go of the past. And occasionally I'll post what I find works for me and share it with the rest of you who are dealing with the same emotional poison I'm dealing with.
Here's a meditation that may help. Imagine that you were just born today, the same age that you are, but you were born blank. Every night when going to sleep, imagine your sleep as your death, and when you awaken each morning, imagine that as your rebirth......and each rebirth as being born blank, completely fresh. Now, this meditation serves 2 purposes. First, it allows us to not let the past define where we are going, since any past attachment is a limitation. If we look at the past as some big obstacle to overcome, we're putting limitations on ourselves by letting our past define ourselves. Second, it's a reminder to us that we need to live each day fully, as if it was our last day on earth. If you were told you had 24 hours left to live, you would cherish every breath and let go of any inhibitions and do all of the things you wanted to do. By practicing the art of dieing, we learn the art of living. Death is coming for each of us and the Earth doesn't have any permanent tenants. That shouldn't scare us though. We all come from the same Source. And returning to that Source is peaceful :)
KungFu