I think a mistake many people, including myself, make is to read through posts quickly without taking the time to digest properly what the intent of the poster was. In reading through your posts in this thread, I've come to realize the amount of courage it took for you to start it off. We share a common tragedy in our past, and yet I think of the two of us you are the one who is further along in recovery. In this thread you are expressing the true sentiments of Christianity. You are acknowledging the pain and trauma caused by your two abusers and yet you are advanced and mature enough to forgive them. Indeed, despite all they did, you still can feel affection for them. This to me is extraordinary. When I look inside myself at my own abusers I do not find the ability or desire to forgive them, much less express love for them. Your posts in this thread calls to mind all the scriptures wherein Jesus commends those who love their enemy. This ability to forgive someone, especially when the hurt is great, is at the very heart of Christianity.
In my mind the greatest tragedy in this thread occurred when nearly everyone assumed you were some bleeding heart for child molestors. Time and again you stated you were referring, specifically, to your own molestors. If someone takes the time to read what you have to say it is clear you do not condone pedophiles, instead you abhor what they do and the pain they cause. I am truly sorry for my part in failing to recognize what you were doing. I am also sorry when you said you regretted starting the thread. Again let me say, what you did took a lot of courage. What should have been a healing experience for you apparently turned painful. If I am reading you correctly you were making a very personal statement about yourself and what happened to you, not the world in general.
I just wanted to acknowledge what you were attempting. I believe we're all in this life together. If we don't help one of us, then all are diminished. I just wanted you to feel good about yourself for starting this thread. It wasn't a mistake to start it and I'm glad you shared your thoughts and feelings with the rest of us.