I just got a phone call from my wailing mom that her best friend, and someone I grew up with, has died.
I really disliked this woman. Her son told on me for saluting the flag in high school. That's how my mom and her became friends. So we were off to great start as you can see.
Anyway she died last night, and i can't help but feel sorry for all these Jehovahs' Witnesses who thought Armageddon was going to be here in like 1987 and yet there sitting rotting away on some hospital bed in 2002, after spending their whole lives yelling at their kids/shunning their kids who were leaving the truth, trying to be good Jehovahs' Witnesses and sacrificing everything for the big Paradise payoff.
It makes me sick to my stomach that the JWs are still getting away with it. My poor mom. She took a bunch of fucking pills to pass out cause she couldn't deal with the death. No Armegeddon yet and her friend dies. She used to say how she'd never get old and that her friend (who died) would be with her during Armageddon and that they would call each other when it started and meet up at each others houses with their kids. They would have Armageddon drills practically.
Even though the bitch is dead and good riddance to her, i feel for my mom who is almost 50, and is losing friends she'd never thought she'd lose. All I can think about is how awful her life will be in the next coming years. I don't know if she'll last. I hope to god she can keep fooling herself into believeing still. I wouldn't want her to know the truth of it. I"m afraid she'd kill herself. She's sacraficed so much: her marriage, her kids, her sanity. I"m thanful i was able to figure it out in time and get myself a real life, free from all the hocus pocus superstions of being a JW.
If i saw someone with a magazine right now i'd really lay in to them. IF i saw a Governing Body member i'd punch him right in the fucking face.