In response to a post on reddit, I would like to make this long withheld post.
On more than one occasion, I have experienced what seemed like miracles.
Due to whatever circumstances, in retrospect, largely caused by Borg directive, our family became perpetually "in need."
My efforts, as the "head," to do the right Borg thing, service, meeting attendance, family worship, never seemed to provide the relief promised by WTS.
Mentally, I have ALWAYS wrestled with the contradiction of Job and of Matt. 6:33.
Satan challenged that if a JW were tested with material, etc. distress, then that JW would cave.
Jesus, however, said that a faithful JW would always have his needs cared for.
It cannot be both.
I prayed like Gideon. Gideon prayed for a specific answer - dry fleece or not dry.
I often prayed for some kind of direction, please, like Gideon - often, and fervently.
Never an answer.
I tried as hard as a human could try. No answer.
Our family went through horrific stresses (electric cut off [twice], natural gas cut off, foreclosure [twice] ).
And yet, at least twice, we received what I consider miraculous events.
Once, a payment (over 10k), TO THE DAY, when I needed it.
Another, a phone call that led to a payment of over 10k, exiting the parking lot of the Sunday DC, of which I was hungover and forced myself to attend the Sunday session.
WTF?
How does a person rationalize this stuff?
On more than one occasion, I have experienced what seemed like miracles.
Due to whatever circumstances, in retrospect, largely caused by Borg directive, our family became perpetually "in need."
My efforts, as the "head," to do the right Borg thing, service, meeting attendance, family worship, never seemed to provide the relief promised by WTS.
Mentally, I have ALWAYS wrestled with the contradiction of Job and of Matt. 6:33.
Satan challenged that if a JW were tested with material, etc. distress, then that JW would cave.
Jesus, however, said that a faithful JW would always have his needs cared for.
It cannot be both.
I prayed like Gideon. Gideon prayed for a specific answer - dry fleece or not dry.
I often prayed for some kind of direction, please, like Gideon - often, and fervently.
Never an answer.
I tried as hard as a human could try. No answer.
Our family went through horrific stresses (electric cut off [twice], natural gas cut off, foreclosure [twice] ).
And yet, at least twice, we received what I consider miraculous events.
Once, a payment (over 10k), TO THE DAY, when I needed it.
Another, a phone call that led to a payment of over 10k, exiting the parking lot of the Sunday DC, of which I was hungover and forced myself to attend the Sunday session.
WTF?
How does a person rationalize this stuff?
