Lies, when do people decide, no more lies and just tell the truth. Whatever happens is what is supposed to happen at the fork in the road when you mentally leave the KH. To thine own self be true.
Maybe I was unusual, as I never lied about what I was reading, C0C book was left out in the open, Gentile times book, out in the open (1988). I talked to the elders about points I found in the books and they never asked to look at the books, never refuted what was in them,either, they just said-- "don't do it". Wrote letters to bethel and bethel only told the elders to investigate me. Funny, when they asked what was in my letters, I realized that bethel didn't tell them. I told the elders, I guess bethel can't trust you with that information, so I'm not going to tell you either-- here read the books like I did. Boy did that get them upset.
Abraham Lincoln said it best:"No man has a good enough memory to be a successful liar"
It's only a matter of time before a sneak gets caught, It's better to go out taking the high and honorable road, IMO.