Dear Friends,
Just to remind you, my mom has been a faithful JW borg since 1959. She will be 78 in a couple weeks. She is a widow and lives alone. She also has a serious heart condition, but will not get surgery because of the blood issue. She is supposed to limit her physical activities.
We manage to communicate now, only if I listen to her descriptions of the various types of foods she fixes, and all her aches and pains. When I attempt to discuss my own personal happiness, she won't hear it. She believes that I cannot be happy, or that if I am, I must be delusional. Anyway, her children take turns contacting her to make certain she's doing alright. My brother lives nearby.
Well, this morning I tried to call her right when I got to work, which was close to nine. The phone rang and rang, and I thought, "well, she must be in the bathroom", or out on her little porch. (Her hearing is not the best.) So, I tried again an hour later, and she answered. When I inquired as to her whereabouts when I called earlier, this is what she told me.
She said, "oh, I got up at six and took the bus to the local Mall, where I waited around at the bus stop, witnessing to all who would listen and giving away my magazines--there is so little time left, you know".
I wanted to reprimand her and inquire of her if she thought that was a good idea, going out alone, at her age, with her heart condition. But, I kept my mouth shut. The Florida heat usually gets to her, and zaps her energies, so I'm certain that's why she was going out so very early. I think it would please her very much to be found dead, holding her bookbag of goodies while out in the service. She is such a martyr, and almost enjoys telling us these stories. She knows that we worry about her, and are too far away to do anything.
What am I gonna do with her. This sweet little old lady with a heart of stubborn gold for her "cause", and total borg top to bottom and inside out?
Just venting a bit here....
Karen/Sentinel