The realization that Armageddon wasn't coming anytime soon had there for quite a few years before I also realized that none of it was true, so it wasn't a big shock that I was going to die. But losing my faith was hard. The Watchtower belief system is a way of explaining all the bad in the, world, a security blanket of hope that was suddenly gone. I felt a loss and it was hard realizing that there were just bad things in the world and no one was coming to fix it.
To Furkano: I was 45 before I wised up, that was fifteen years ago. Since then I have gotten married, traveled, started my own business and met many great friends. If I die tomorrow it all would have been worth it. Whatever time you have, it's well worth it, a year or twenty years, life is what you make it.