Have you ever read your old posts and thought, " OMG... I am a friggin nutter!!!" LOL!! I just read through some things that "Defender of Truth" reminded me of. At first I felt horrible, embarrassed, stupid, exposed, like my thoughts were being used against me. I had a wave of anxiety come over me, it felt like sitting across from the Elders in the back room. [ I don't think that was DOT's intention] Then something happened... I started laughing!! There is not a person on this site, or on this Earth who doesn't carry baggage around or isn't a bit nutty. Why not just be an open book? If I am Kray..so what?! So are YOU. I would rather continue sharing and gaining enlightenment, than hiding and never growing.
We all have two choices:
1) Carry it alone.
2) Share the load.
That's it. The baggage is there. It's probably never really going away. We just get stronger and it feels lighter. We just have to survive long enough, and not get crushed by guilt. Sometimes we ask for help, sometimes it's given when we don't think we need it. Whatever the case may be, you ain't carrying that burden yourself, it cannot be done. There are days when the load is so heavy that you can't get out of bed. Sometimes you forget it's there until you look in the mirror, or it slaps you in the face. You have to let others help you during those times. Then you feel great the next day or week. Well, that's when you help someone else carry their load. The strong help shoulder the budens of the weak, and that is the way it should be.
Thanks for being there, everyone. D.O.T included.
DD
...OUTLAW