I went today because I'm fading, and I wanted to hear what was going to be said. To say that it was F***ING WATCHTARDED would not be an accurate description. In fact, there are no words that can describe how I feel right now.
I want to leave JW.net so the pain stops. I want to leave the WTBTS to keep my sanity. It's been a long time since I wondered about killing myself or faking my death and starting fresh, this WT lesson has me considering several options.
No, I'm not going to kill myself, but I am so, so, so very upset and furious and disgusted. I may write an editorial about the article in line with Crazyguy's question about "worldly scholars" thoughts on types and anti-types, or I may just get drunk.
One thing is becoming clear, I can't do "this" anymore.