i've been away from WT for a while....i'm all of the sudden dealing with so much guilt. you know how they say "there is no excuse"? no matter what happens you have to go to meetings/service etc. i'm not feeling guilty about that, i'm feeling guilty because of the mere IDEA (which ironically is a good solid principle) ie. don't let anything get you off track, do your part regardless. the problem is when it's applied to the WT, and not real things like family or a solid career. i think this guilt was instilled in me long long time ago, and it's just firing off on me right now nonstop, hard to concentrate. guilt trip city.
which is actually in this case (normally it is the weak thing) is actually the strong thing. you see so many witnesses (a lot of them elders), who don't stay around because they even believe in the religion so much anymore, they just refuse to be made to feel like they gave up...but again, in this case, giving up on alcoholism is a good thing...it's not giving up on a marriage vow or something.
