About 10 years ago I was hanging out with this guy. For about 6 months we were attached at the hip, we both had our first cars and wanted to explore our area like no others. Sometimes we'd take his car, sometimes we'd take my truck.
Before we'd embark on these adventure quests, we'd always stop by a local bank ATM. My friend would go to the ATM and withdrawl enough money from his account that he felt we needed for the day. He had a job and I didn't, was still living with my parents.
He did this all the time. We'd stop by an ATM and he'd grab 40 bucks here, 60 bucks there 20 bucks there. Finally I asked him "When is your account going to run out of money?"
He said, "I don't know."
I aksed "How do you not know how much money you have in your account, can't you check the balance anytime you want from the ATM?"
He said "Yes, I can."
I told him to check it!
He said "I don't want to check it because I know the first time I check it I am going to find out I don't have any money left."
I have always remembered this experience because I thought it was funny. But now I see symbolism in this experience. It is similar to the way Witnesses act when they start doubting what they have been taught. They hold onto the proclaimers book and "truths" told to them by other people. They are terrified of looking on the internet about Jehovah's Witnesses not only because the Governing Body demonizes it. They are also terrified of what they may find. Their subconscious knows that there things to see that cannot be unseen.
So, just like my friend foolishly not paying attention to his balance for fear of running out of money the Witnesses do not pay attention to people speaking out against the Organization for fear they might actually make sense and they will have to consider the words.