Dear God, Gods or Goddesses

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  • free2beme
    free2beme

    Dear God, Gods or Goddess,

    I write to you today, not to ask for forgiveness or for any special favors, but rather to explain myself. For you see, I think there is a lot of misconception in this world, as to who or what I am. Some people say I am evil, some say I am in need of forgiveness and others just think I am not worth the time of day to even think about. So with this in mind, I thought I would speak my mind to you and explain to you what I really think about life, who I am and why I am here, as well as explaining where I think I am going.

    You see God, Gods or Goddess. I actually have spent a large part of my life trying to find you, trying to understand you and become someone who I thought was what you wanted. However, in all this time, I have learned one really important fact about people like me. That is, that someone will always be out there in this world who thinks they know more then me about you and know so much more, that they also think they need to control me through fear to please you. Perhaps this is a trait you might not like in me, but I am one who thinks I lived scared long enough. When I was a child, I feared bugs, as a teen, I feared the judgement of my peers and as an adult I feared failure and economic problems. One thing I know, is I have had enough of being motivated by fear and wont take on another bit of fear in to my mind.

    As you look in to my heart, I am sure you will notice something about me. I have actually been what I consider to be a good person, not perfect by any nature, but good. I do not look at others in my life and expect them to be anymore then they can, and even those who do not try hard enough, I still consider good and on their own to be the most they can be. I do, as you know, make bad decisions and I do things in my life that are not considered good by the general public. I do however, think that is my taste of this life and what I want from it.

    Now you also know, in my past I dove full force in to a religion I once felt was your people. To be honest, at the end I might find out I was wrong in leaving them. However I would like to explain something to you and perhaps you could file this away with all the others you will see a life end on. If those people were what you wanted, what you expected and if you wanted me to be like them. Then I consider it an honor to not stand by your side, as I do not keep company with people who would warrent and allow such judgement and false attitudes, drowning in fear.

    That being said, I also want you to know that I am opened minded enough to understand how life might have begun, without totally discounting the legends that exist about it. I am not saying I buy the stories, but I buy the desire to want to know and for a parent to come up with a way of explaining it in a way that a child might understand. I just think, as the child grows older, you add on and explain things better and do not think the child will still accept the basic fairy tale. You, should know, our human race grew older and you however did not provide this explanation and perhaps that explains why we found answers on our own. Which, shows just how resourceful we have become.

    Death is something we all fear and I am no exception to that. The idea that we might live past this life, helps us to think each day is worth it. To think that we will just shut off one day, with no memories, no thoughts and just plain end. Well frankly, that sucks! Why even go another day, if you will simply not care pass the life of this body? Kind of a rip off if you ask me. I am one to think there is more, but not more in the sense of judgement for a heaven and hell. If you do think hell was worth making, and would do that to people who lived their best to survive in this world. Then I say to you, send me there ... I would rather stand among sinners who tried their best. Then people who faked their way through life to please you.

    So with this all said, I want you to know, I do appreciate this life and I really like 'love.' Love teaches us so much and in my opinion, it teaches us what we should expect from you and what we should really look for. So in my life, in my journey to find you and come to terms with you. I some how found a lot of love, and not some 'save you' religion. So maybe God, Gods, or Goddess ... I did find you. I just did not find the answer I wanted, but instead I found the answer I needed.

    See you around, see you in the past and future and if a day of judgement is what you really do to your beings.

    See ya and good-bye!

    Sincerely,

    Me

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