Hi, after my grandma past who was in this religion, I was an idiot, and I stayed in the religion as I thought it was the only way to see her again. My dad stressed because he was inactive but busy supporting our family.She was faithful to the religion, becase like Saul she thought she was doing the right thing.
Being "black" it was hard for us to support the house we bought in the suburban area. The dead beat jobs that I could get after high school were not acceptable to me, and I would surely lose my patience with people espeically if I hated the job and was getting paid near minimum wage. Fortunately due to my intelligence I had the chance to go to university. I love to learn, so I do well in class, its great. Of course the organized form of the modern day Pharisees looked down on me, but only subtly. Inside I was always mad, they were white, had bussinesses didn't have to worry about being in debt or any of that. They could go out in service in peace. I on the other hand, could only do what I could. Eventually I just couldn't afford to go out in service, on top of this, I felt it was a fruitless endeavor.
In school I took a lot of classes that exposed me to history and religion through art, and I became facisnated with it. Eventually one of my prof. brought up the fact that the Jesus that was painted white was incorrect and just a reflection of the people who created the paintings, peice etc. I looked into it more.
At first I learned that he was middle eastern, then I learned that the middle east known of today was non-existent and was part of Africa earlier in history, I then researched further and found out that the arabs were actually invaders of the land. I eventually came to the evidence of the nation of Isereal being mostly Ethopian in origin. I read the Scriptures where they were confused with Egyptains among other scriptures. On top of this, research brought me to Dueteronomy 4 and Dueteronomy 28 describining all the curses that fell on the nation of isereal, one of them said that the nation of isreal would be taken into egypt agian by ship and taken to many nations of the lands where their quantity would be dropped signifigantly, this would be the only sign of their heritage as they would be labled other names and be the lowest race of the earth. In the book of Enoch I read a prophecy that said that the Iserealites' decendants would complain about slaving and gaining nothing from it, but the rulers would neither care, or feel responsible for it. At first it was hard to believe, but all the prophets spoke of it, I knew I was a decendant of the hebrew iserealites. I learned how if we opened our eyes to what our ancestors had done and turned back, God would promise to call us back to our true home after Jesus comes to clean up. I cried harder than I had cried in my life. This was it. I prayed and promised to study the Bible vigrously. Many things became clear, more clear than when I was listening to the WTS babel. I eventually came to the conclusion that no officially established religion on the planet at this current time is correct. One thing was for sure, I needed to get the HELL out of the WTS before I made my situation worse.
I wondered why the wathctower society would fill their publications with the incorrect color of the isrealites. I figured that if they claimed they were the truth they would want to be as accurate as they could with the everything. Yet they obviously failed to do it. I got even angrier when they basically ignored half of the propecies given in the Bible in relaitons to the condition of the true Isrealites, which in effect caused their WHOLE belief system to fall to peices. In an outragge I prepared to leave the org as soon as I could (setting the date for May). My sister who is only 16 is not extermely religious or as adamant about it as me, my mom has no interest in jws and my dad is inactive like I said. I came to them one morning and explained our origin and tried to explain that the WTS was lying, they didn't get it (mom didn't seem to care either way). My sister freaked out and complained about our dead grandma that served this stupid brainwashing org. my dad said that that would imply that she served for nothing. I said no, and that God would see in her heart that she was serving in truth, truly believng she was doing the right thing. But he is not getting it. Neither of them are brainwashed, but its the fact that they think our grandma wasted her life. I don't know what to do, I DON'T want my family in this religion anymore, I want to protect them from lies, I want to read JUST the Bible with them on the Sabaath (as the 1st centurey Christains still noted) and go to the library if we have trouble with something, its the best we can do in this world right now. All I think of is poiting them to Saul, God had mercy on a former PERSCUTER of Chrits who thought he was doing right, surely he will have mercy a woman who thought she was doing right and preaching as well... *SIGH* man this sucks... I also am in class with a witness, I don't want drama with this guy, so I'm just going to dissasociate this summer if I can get my family to see.
