I think an important part of facing my parents is first writing a letter to my brother - who got it the worst. Then, I will talk with him and see if he would like to do this with me. But, first and foremost, he has to know how I feel. Below is the letter. Let me know if you think I'm missing something. I will give this to him today and hopefully have a talk with him tonight. I'll let you know how it goes.
I just wanted you to know that you are my hero. I think about almost every day how strong of a person you are. Every day growing up, you were a shield to us. Every day, I wanted to protect you, but I was too weak. Every day, I try to forgive myself for not even trying to stand up for you. But you, ****, always stood up for us. You were the brunt of everything. You were the strong one.
I just wanted to make sure you knew that. That you knew how much I love you and how sorry I am.
I’m sitting here trying to figure out a way to let you know how strong of a person I think you are and how much I love you and what you mean to me. But, there really are no words. I just hope that somehow you can understand the gratitude and love that I hold and always will hold in my heart for you.