21 years ago I left the Watchtower and my family and friends physically, but have never been able to really leave them behind emotionally. This
has caused me a number of problems over the years, including depression and anxiety to the point of suicide. At some point, I have realized that
everyone in a situation has power, including me. I think I have been unaware of my power up until now. They are not the only ones who have
the power to shun for whatever particular reason they may choose to do so. I can choose to shun them because they are truly a bad influence
on my life. Only my mother has actually lived faithfully as a Jehovah's Witness all these years and I admire her. She is a kind and loving person
and this is her faith. Its her faith because she wants the world the be a better place. She truly only hopes the best for everyone. I will stay in
touch with her because I truly truly love her. I will shun all others in my family that are witnesses however. It feels good to feel the emotional
ties in my mind melting away.