i did a nice steak dinner....i love to grill/cook....and somehow and for some reason wife brings up jw issues tonight....i really really try to lay off as far as bringing things up.....but anyway....it went on...and on ...and damm that is NOT good, cause i will speak up if i am given the opportunity........so i really have actually asked four of my good elder buddies for a year "how can i get my faith back?"......i HATE that i lost my faith!....but these guys have NEVER lifted a finger!!! (cause they know they have no answers).......so she keeps saying i have not done that...actually asked for help!!......what the fluck!!!........that is callin me a LIAR!!......so i called her on it over and over........i have even TOLD her when it happened that i asked for help gettin my faith back!...so that hurt a bit.........
and so i begged her to just answer one question at a time...let me put it in writing as i have done in emails....one point at a time....but noooooooo....i should ask da elders not her......and so i say i DID!....and again she says i did not!!...so AGAIN i am a fukkin liar!!!!!.....so i pack a bag.....and say this is prob not gonna work....so then she falls down on the floor cryin....it was real...not fake....but she keeps tellin me why she believes this and that......and that i am am here with a bunch of apostates (not a REAL support group).....and i say fluck...i am on facebook whackin the fluck out of apostates that say shit about us....and she says...STOP SAYING US!!!...YOU ARE AN APOSTATE...NOT ONE OF "US".......so i say i am still on the books as a jw kinda.....and i just ask her to please please show me things from the Bible....like how we can arrive as gods chosen people in 1919...and how important it is jesus came in 1914 to prove that......and how ALL of our beliefs are dependent on this and that the FDS were chosen as gods spokesman................................................and ya........i am in a separate room and prob will be for a while..........(so it is a big house and i just did not have the energy to leave...ok?).....
bottom line....she does not even care about any teaching of the past or present......she even called me a liar for saying that we (jw's) teach that ONLY active dubs will survive Armageddon!!!!....that god will just read hearts at the END!......geeze how can these people not even know what we have taught for a DECADES!!!!.....so i told her my buds and dad said the same damm thing...and will she please read what WT says about how only ACTIVE dubs will survive......that BILLIONS of those in "ignorance" will be whacked in the END!.........BUT SHE DOES NOT CARE ABOUT IT OR IF THEY WERE WRONG!!!!!......CAUSE THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES PRODUCING THE FRUITS AND DONT GO TO WAR AND LA.DE.DA.DE.LA.DE DA DE DAAAAA................now i do need strong meds....or a year sabbatical.......or scotch and meds (and ya all...i know that is not the real answer....it fixes nothing)..............oompa
honest truth...i would really, really like not a single reply to this thread......just know that this is how it can go guys...i have hung in here with her for over two years and only missed ONE MEMORIAL!......but tonight she told me i have missed three or four!!!!.........that is how it is in their minds!!!!........and my posts will prove i am correct.....and damm....i have only been here for a bit over a year!!!!