And thank the great apostagod I found it, cause I was quite crippled and needed crutches. Waking up messed me up in many ways and has strained my marriage beyond belief as my wife is still a very hard core JW. I have used JWD as a support group, and it is very good as that (my shrink said I needed to find one).
Now that me and misses have been to four marriage counseling sessions, the awesome therapist has explained to my wife just how flucked up I still am and have been....and said I really NEED JWD, and to BE WITH people who have experienced the same awakening thing!! And BTW, my wife is becoming accepting of this notion!...so some good news there! Not only that, but apparently I am so messed up she really wants me to have a personal session with her each week starting right away, and also to go back on meds.....I really don't want to, but know I probably need it now. She seems to understand so well that losing all your core beliefs after 44 years of having been spoon fed it your entire life can leave you really confused, lost. And I need to settle down a mind obsessed with my thoughts about my new understanding of life itself.....which does not seem to have much purpose anymore....I guess I miss that.
Thanks to all the crutches out there!...........oompa