it is an apology....
the one i owe my oldest son, for having dragged his childhood through a cult's skewed and twisted thinking, enabling the disconnect in his life that opened the door to abberant behaviour that continues for all time to have an impact on his life..... my heart bleeds and my soul weeps for this wounded child of mine.....
he needs to know i now understand what happened and why
he needs to know i cherish his presence in my life immeasurably more than the mind-control organization that would demand i separate myself from him in order to please their god
travel plans over the next week will enable me to spend a night in the city where he lives..... he has an inkling of the changes i have been thru this last season, but i doubt he will be expecting this....
as deeply distressing as his choices in life have been, i cannot imagine a crueler edict than one that would require a parent to abandon their child to their pain.......
if for no other reason than this, and there are many others to be sure, the WTS proves it is not an agency of a loving god
i am sad and nervous and anxious to see this accomplished so we can move on to what is next