I have such a difficult time living a double life, I dont hate going to meetings and seeing the friends I just know it is not real and I dont like being there. But since I can not get my husband (who is also inactive) to just leave for good we go back from time to time.
My older Son really hates it all his friends from the Hall are either in Jail or in a Gang it was difficult to keep him in the Truth because of seeing so many of his friends doing badly. I finally allowed him to just have worldly friends and he is fine, in fact some of the JWs would ask if their children could come over and spend time with my Son and we were not even active.
I know I can never go back to the JWs, I realize it is false but I also know that we all need to keep praying to God and I believe that God is Jehovah, some people just need to do it in a building and need to belong to a place where people treat them like they are some body.
I really need people to talk to that can understand what it is like living like this.
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