I have not posted in a bit.... Life basically as a fader sucks!! When my wife just does not get it & I don't know if she ever will. Marriage is great for the most part, but this religion is starting to drive a wedge between us & it really sucks! I just don't know what to do anymore.
Friend tells me to just "suck it up, look over all of the BS and get into a place mentally where you can cope". But unfortunately that means going out in service or even commenting at meetings!$#@.
I CANNOT DO THAT!! I STILL HAVE TO LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR!!! Only thing I can barely cope with is just going to meetings. It is just a waste of time.
As someone that is pretty upbeat, this is really draining me. The guilt trip these people are putting me under is just sad.