I'm also laughing at the whole thing. I make maybe 40% of the meetings now.
Does anyone care? No.
If someone did care, my shepherding notification system (telephone) would alert me, but it rarely makes any noise.
When I do go to the meetings, there is a huge mental gulf between them and me - I see everything in a different light.
Nothing makes sense anymore.
I leave thanking God that I am no longer a mental captive, even though I am physically captive for the benefit of my spouse.
As time goes by, I start to notice things that now really irritate me. Brothers who seemed genuine and kind were simply passing the time talking to me, not out of any sincere interest, but because they felt an obligation to "widen out."
Then there are those who have developed the remarkable ability of seeing through solid objects - myself for example. They behave as if I am not there and look right through me.
What really galls me is that elders will talk to my wife, and I will be standing there, and they will not even acknowledge me.
Who needs friends like that?