Watching the Ted Haggard story unfold has been a trip into the bizarre world of conservative Christianity. In a letter read to his congregation Mr. Haggard let us get a glimpse of a person whose troubles hasn’t even begun. It is a man still in deep denial about who he is.
He calls himself “a deceiver and a liar” something that is of course correct but that is more or less in the “job description” of all Christians. The only thing that varies is the degree of lies and deception.
Having sex with a consenting adult is of course not wrong in itself. It only becomes wrong if you have sworn to be faithful to another. Still the poor man describes his desperate venture into his true sexuality thus:
"There is a part of my life that is so repulsive and dark that I've been warring against it all of my adult life,”
It is indeed tragic that a homosexual man has grown up in an environment where it has become necessary for him to deny himself, put on an act to the extent that he has married and had children just to play the “normal.” That he actually believes that he can continue the “war” against himself. It must be horrific to be so completely messed up.
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