You become more paranoid about things…
You want to just do as much as you can for Jehovah’s approval but…
Suddenly, your weekends are gone…got to go out and knock on people’s doors…
… a lot of what you’re doing in the congregation seems monotonous and boring, no matter how many times you hear that “you’re making Jehovah happy”. You feel less and less crazy about going out in service, pioneering, doing quick builds. Doing all of this is way too much…
… and way too repetitive
Even the talks seem to get more and more repetitive
You find out there are more interesting things to do during meetings… There’s got to be more to life than this….
You feel sad….
Morale couldn’t be worse…
The organization seems more bureaucratic than based on love…
… and…you find out that there are others in the congregation who just like you do…
You begin to find out about things that test your loyalty to the organization….
Your opinion of the Elders decreases…
You feel confused…if this isn’t the truth, then what is?
You start getting in trouble for small things…
You’re viewed as spiritually sick…
You get this feeling that somebody’s watching you
Trouble ensues….