When did your armagedon nightmares end?

by jambon1 5 Replies latest jw friends

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  jambon1

  I realise that many did not really believe what the WT taught about armageddon but many did. I was one of them. Believed it for 6 out of 10 years in the truth.

  I really feel that apart from making me extreemly depressed and paranoid when I was conscious, this ridiculous & absurd teaching gave me literal nightmares.

  • What would happen to me/family?
  • Would my wife be raped?
  • Would I be tortured in front of her, just like the real life stories in the WT/yearbooks
  • Would I ever see my wordly family again?
  • When I had my kids, these thoughts became out of control

  These questions and scenarios occupied the content of my dreams for years. It was not until my complete disassociation with the org 6 months ago that these things slowly started to disappear, even though I never really believed the truth for the last 4 years I was in.

  What about you?
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  Pubsinger

  Hi.

  I think those were actually "Great Tribulation" nightmares.

  You know I'm not sure I ever believed that it was going to happen especially in Europe.

  Any fear I had disappeared when I realised that JWs had it all wrong anyway.
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  Seeker4

  Despite being a Witness since childhood, I never had any Great Tribulation nightmares. I had a couple of dreams about life in the New System, but that was it.
  Strangely, though I've been out for about a decade now, I have dreams involving the Witnesses pretty much every night.
  S4
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  cassidy

  I am brand new to this site, I don't know why I never searched on the web for other ex-jw's, I just never did. It does help to know that there are so many others out there who experienced the same treatment, terror, and out and out bull@#$% I did.

  I was one of those unfortunate brought up in the "truth" and I bought it hook line and sinker because it was all I knew. I finally left at age 28, I am 58 now and honestly still get the scary's about "armageddon" although, I would rather than die with the sinners than live in that everlasting hell they describe. My own mother still tells me that unless I change and return, she will be burying my bones after the birds pick the flesh off.

  It took me a long time to realize how conditioned I was. How literally brainwashed. I know live a relatively normal life and worry more about the bushites than the wbts, but it is always back there.
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  jambon1

  It does help to know that there are so many others out there who experienced the same treatment, terror, and out and out bull@#$% I did.

  Cassidy:

  Thats just how I felt at the time I exited. At one time you feel that the fault is yours - you are a weak sinner. You do all sorts to make it right but in the end you break up because of the bullshyte. You realise others feel the same as you - some have suffered years.
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  serendipity

  Hi cassidy & welcome!