So here I am Sunday walking through the mall with my hubby, niece and little girl. He's from Guatemala and I'm about as white as you can get..red hair to boot. We're talking in Spanish about whatever and a little voice comes up from behind me in Spanish, "You speak Sapnish?" DUH!! So I said yeah and smiled. Well then the "truth" came out....I guess the Sapnish cong. in the area have special stuff to hand out right now and she just launched right into to it. I was like No thanks and kept walking...she had to follow " blah blah blah blah blah". I said you guys are witnesses right? She said yes. I said "Look I was involved with them for over 10 years and don't want to have any part of it"
Boy was I stupid enough to think that would shut her up! She keeps following me..Why? What happened? with a look of utter shock on her face that anyone would leave Jehovah. I finally turned around and told her to leave me alone, I'm finished with this conversation. She stopped thank god!
I've been messed up about it since...should I have tried to explain what happened to me? Why I'm no part of it anymore? Then I get pissed off and think I should have gone to mall mgmt. and told them what was going on in their mall. We saw the lady and her husband for the next hour approaching anyone who looked like they might speak spanish. And why did she talk to me...not my husband who is obviouly latino?
My thoughts and emotions have been on a roller coaster ride ever since. I had thought I was doing so much better not thinking about the witnesses all the time and all a sudden BAM it all comes back at once!!!! I get really mad that I reacted so strongly, I didn't think it would affect me this much. Geesh....will it ever totally go away???