How has your thinking changed from growing up worldly, to joining jw's, and back to normalcy again? I began studying at 21 and stopped at 25, without getting baptized.
I no longer seek out anything to satisfy my inner self.
My confidence isn't up to what I feel it could have been, had I not felt dragged down by them. Guilt can work wonders on a person's emotions.
I am leary to trust anyone until I know the real you. This means seeing more than the image a person chooses to portray. I want to know a person when they're pissed, sad, happy, etc.
Finally, I'll never enjoy holidays the same, but do enjoy birthdays more than ever. They took the joy, well, ignorance out of thanksgiving and christmas. My feeling that it's ok to enjoy each year of birth is stronger. This is life, afterall!