I am very interested in hearing from anyone who is on this board that is still going to meetings. I was wondering....
Since you find yourself on this board with countless people who have left and are telling their personal stories, not to mention exposing that organization for the brainwashing cult that it truly is.... is this helping you to leave and make the final departure?
Speaking from experience, I think I always knew that I didn't want to be a Witness, but it was going to be a harder journey to leave and you find yourself staying out of convenience, not to mention all of the feellings of doubt, guilt and straightforward fear....but if I may be so bold....why do you keep going? I only ask because I'm really interested...I think it will help me understand why it took so long for me to walk away when ultimately I knew I was going to. But I always wonder why I kept subjecting myself to everything, especially judicial committees. And are you here to find the strength to leave.... or do you think you never will be able to because you feel you have to much to lose?
Can you imagine? We think that 3 men have the right to take us into a room privately and interrogate us? And we still answer !!!!!! I finally got in trouble because of "sexual misconduct." To this day I will always believe that they ask as many questions as they do so they can go home and whack off to the fantasies that they wish they could be participating in. And how uncomfortable to put women in that position to tell three men what they are doing in bed, or how many times etc. etc. Yes, all questions I was asked...."Gee brothers, I'm up to about 4 times a day..." as if doing it 4 times a day is worse than doing it once...it's still sex isn't it? Perverts!!!! They probably go home and say, "C'mon honey, Sister so-and-so is doing it everyday, why can't you?" ha.
In the real world, if our employers called us into a room and asked the same kind of questions they would be stuck with one hell of a law suit for sexual harrassment, but yet we still think these guys can behave in the same manner and we have to abide by their "laws" of disclosure. I salute all of you that had your wits about you to tell them to go to hell and not answer to them.
Anyhow, I think my main point, before I began to talk all of your ears off, was wondering why some of you who seem so convinced that it's not the place to be, still go..... and I only ask out of love, friendship and curiousity...not judgment.
have a good days everyone.