Today I watched a wedding. I always have a slight bit of saddness as I watch people the weddings I go to. I think it is because I see all these relatives hugging and dancing, laughing and even arguing sometimes. It is the actual family and all the workings of it that I miss. Not that I ever really had it, but I do miss out (at least in my mind) by not having my older family around.
Usually I am pretty happy and build my own family out of people I let into my life, but every once in a while, I just get so sad. One would think I would be a little left out watching all this romance flying around. That really for the most part does not upset me, but when I see the dad and daughter dance...well it always tears me up. I am not sure if any of you experience this at weddings, holidays, special events, but I can tell you it sucks.
Or especially when the older family members have been married for years. When they dance together it shows as they move together in perfect timing. I love to see couples dance that have lasted in love. I always thought that would be me. Well seeing that is not the case, you would think I would toughen up some and stop getting teary eyes when I am working.