Well, I thought I was doing better but I guess I was wrong!
Last night I found out that a sister I loved dearly passed away. She died of cancer. I've known her all my life, and it makes me very sad for that reason alone. But her death also troubles me. She was a member of the anointed (do I even believe that anymore?) and her death has brought all kinds of questions and confusion for me. Is she in heaven right now? Does that mean Armageddon is coming closer? Do I go to the funeral or not? That was rendered a moot point because it's at 2:00 today, and it just doesn't give me enough time to talk to my boss about it. Add in the fact that I'm not dressed properly, and going back to the KH gives me heebie jeebies, and it's a total no-brainer. I can pay my respects to her without having to go there. I'm probably going to write her family a card. But I feel so confused and lost and sad.
Has anyone else been in this situation? How did you cope?