Heterodoxy
het·er·o·dox·y [hétt?r? dòksee] (plural het·er·o·dox·ies)
n (formal)
1. disagreement with established opinions: the condition of being at variance with established or accepted beliefs or theories, especially in the field of religion
Encarta ® World English Dictionary
Are you more heterodoxical now, as an apostate, than you were before as a witness? Or less?