I was the 6th person in an elevator car today, which meant I had to stand in the middle. Everyone else was against a wall and there I was, on display. This is always an uncomfortable spot for me. I deal with it by recognizing that no one cares about me! C'mon, these people are on an elevator, they're on their way to something. The last thing they care about is me. It's not like I'm wearing a hat made of fruit, or carrying a furry pink purse or anything. There's no reason to be paranoid.
It made me realize that all the times I feel paranoid are times when I have a different (usually inflated) view of myself than those around me probably do. Sometimes I'm in a meeting with 10-20 people and a question comes up. Anyone at the table might be said to be responsible to know the answer, but it's clear no one does. I immediately feel put on the spot, "I *should* know this! And I don't! They all think I'm an incompetant idiot." No, they don't. It's not that they aren't thinking I should know the answer, it's that they aren't thinking of me AT ALL! I'm just not that significant to them.
JW's are masters of arrogance, and I don't think coincidentally, are also amazingly paranoid. They actually believe that the UN cares about them. That the FBI cares about them. That the churches care about them. They can imagine pastors cursing the Watchtower over the loss of their flocks, as they all ascend the mountain of Jehovah. But it's just paranoia born of arrogance. The pastors don't care, and probably don't even know, about the Watchtower.
What do you think? Are paranoia and arrogance linked? Are they different faces of the same thought-set? Or am I off in left-field assuming the sky is blue because the grass is green?