Old Recording from when I was 14

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  Nosferatu

  About a month ago, I found an interesting recording. Actually, I knew I had it, but I hadn't listened to it in years. When I was 14 years old, I had secretly recorded my mother giving me shit about the state of my bedroom. She gave me hell for throwing my school pictures on the floor. What I couldn't help but notice about the recording was how my voice reflected my self-esteem and confidence. It was such a sad, depressed voice.

  What got me even more was my mother telling me "You'll be THANKFUL that I save all this stuff. When you're 30 years old, you'll wanna go to mom's and dig through all the junk!"

  I'm turning 28 in a few days. I want to somehow live up to this recording. However, I don't want to give my mother the pleasure of being right because she'll rub it in my face. Any ideas? I'm looking to have some fun with this when I turn 30.
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  drew sagan

  I didn't quite follow what your talking about, but I think I get the idea. I'm guessing there is some tension between you and your mother or something of the sort since you don't want her to rub this in your face.
  What I see in this is irony. You mother probably is coming from the angle that the stuff you disregarded as a child will come to be more important as an adult. Most people feel a sense of nostaligai when looking at items like those pictures. The irony I see is that the purpose of saving such things is usually seen as a way of preserving "happy" memories we want to revisit, where as your tape reveals a condition that is unpleasent and undesireable from that point in your life. In essence the tape reveals more than the picutres and is more important. Your tape wins over moms pictures because they reveal more. (mabye?).
  On the other hand, mabye everything I just said is a big pile of bs. I'm trying to be philosophical or something.