CuriousConfused.....
While I lack the physical capacity to be an elder.....
I decided to comment anyways!
Lets be clear CC---- If you could leave without major consequence you would! There is no honorable way to leave the WTS
So with that in mind let us discern that this is 'Mother's' game/snare/pit!
It is a game of wits, nothing more, nothing less.
I like to think us 'born-ins' all have our 'time' and your exit door just ain't been presented yet.
So what to do while awaiting your release/opportunity to escape......
Well since your already an Elder.....
PLAY THE GAME!
(someone in Bethel is smiling while they read this and thanking hank I cannot become an elder, cuz I wouldn't let one single person stay asleep in my territory!-- sigh--- a rare moment of 'elder-envy'.......okay I am imagining all those fill-in documents and insurance requirement on JW.org to squash that envy cuz I hate, hate that sort of paperwork!)
Not like you don't know how to play strategy.....
Lets start off with the unpleasant aspects of Eldership
JCs---- the bane of every conscious class Elder---- play the compassionate want to forgive and encourage elder, play the hardass that sends the person googling, play the paper-pusher saying your real sorry it has come to this but this is just WTS policy cuz things are 'known'.
WT/CBS/School/Service Conducting---- This can actually be quite fun if done properly! Ask thought provoking questions, play up WTS policy or doctrine the WTS would rather downplay but is still official, talk 1914 until your blue in the face, be fanatical, be the most partyline possible!
FS- Fake it man, and fudge your groups numbers too.....just enough but not to far! Flub it by being soft or too culty if you are at the door! Be the fun elder who stops for coffee a lot, talk up letter writing (arrange for the postage and either donate the amount to a charity or save it up and pay some needy JWs utility bill).....then toss all of them in a recycling bin! Arrange for phone witnessing
ELDER/CO BS--- partyline dubbie is your cover but make note of 'important' things and pass it on to JWN directly or through another trusted poster (nothing wrong in creating distance!)
Things that ROCK about being an Conscious Class Elder!
Congrats you are holy spirit appointed and branch approved!!!!!----- use this pass wisely and you can go far and do good things while doing your time!
Get to sublety flirt with sisters!
Counsel young couples thinking about getting married ---thus op to talk out of or encourage oral sex by not bringing it up!
Mentor---just because it is under the auspice of 'theocracy' don't mean you have to limit guidance to just WTS stuff.
Pass along BOEs, PT Outlines, Assembly/DC outlines if you have the privilege.... if you know what the drama is .... all sort of small gestures to blow off steam building up.
Talk to other on the JWN both for support and to help give a balanced view of elders within the structure (ie there are some stinkers but most are good guys just running the hamster wheel too)
Just do your time, be kind, leave it a better congregation if you can and realize it is a cult and you are but one man........
Huggles Brother