Greetings friends
After learning the things about the ‘truth’ I was more than anxious to share my findings with my folks. My mom had been giving me the, “so when are you going to start going to meetings again’ comments regularly. So one evening, I actually started talking. Now this was a while ago, and looking back, probably a HUGE mistake considering the outcome. We talked about my concerns and when my husband joined in on the conversation, we really got her mind working. We spent 5 hours talking to the point where she admitted that she will leave, and told us all her own doubts. I was ecstatic about the immediate results… both in shock and amazement.
Two days later she approaches me saying that she really didn’t agree with what was said, even though she may have given that impression. I reiterated some of the things mentioned, but her denial was intense and she defended the WT.
A couple days ago I felt the need to share my personal research on the mis translation of the NWT. Would you believe she actually said that the translators kept the theme of the bible, to worship Jehovah? Basically she justified the translation discrepancies as preserving the theme from the old testament and Jehovah’s name. So let me get this right, the writers were wrong when they wrote the Bible and we are thankful for the society for fixing it?
She also presumed that I was visiting ‘apostate’ sites. I didn’t deny it, but I did tell her that all the information I had been sharing with her were from old copies of the watchtowers. I only received a response that those were old and not applicable anymore. Same too is her response when I mentioned the false prophecies of the society… she just says that the GB are just men and they were anxious to see the end come. I quoted Deuteronomy about how to recognize a false prophet by their prophecies not coming true, but she just said they didn’t actually use the word “prophesy”.
I also asked her if the Society taught that Satan had been hurled down to the earth referring to the seventh seal being opened in Revelation. She said yes. I told her I was surprised because I had read revelation twice through recently and a lot is said to have happened before this… which we have not seen yet. Her reply was; “the bible is not written in chronological order”. Are you kidding me?
Last nights conversation was a complete train wreck where every emotion I have been feeling regarding every stress in my life culminated and I exploded. (I am having my own issues and am realizing I am trying to deal with my anger.) It upsets me that after I had told her all these things, they happily listen to the kingdom melodies and go to meetings as if nothing has happened. I know I shouldn’t expect anything less. I was livid… just lost it really. I did get off some good points that my dad was completely unaware of (proving that my mom didn’t actually talk to him like she said). It was a mess… I was mad at a lot of things.
My husbands has advised me to let things go and in due time things will turn out. I am sure he is right. I am having a hard time dealing with them and am afraid I have lost the chance to discuss things casually as they come up.
I guess in the end I wish we hadn’t said anything, which would have given ourselves the upper hand in conversations… but I was so anxious to let them know.
Anyhoo… anyone here have a similar experience where a family member knows your views? How do you continue discussing it without really discussing it?
… joyful all day long ( with the exception of these last few days where I feel I have no purpose on this earth) Trying to get past this anger I feel. I gave up every dream I had for the WT. All my extended family rejected me because I was a witness and the witnesses rejected me because I wasn’t a good enough witness. I guess I just felt I needed my mom to understand me… I just feel so alone.
Thanks for your help and support.