first there was Kathy & Monster
at least i'm pretty sure they were the first.
i wuz three.
and so were we.
we'd race
to the washroom
and monster would alwayz win
but i'd tell him off
and make him let Kathy go first.
oh the memories.
then there was this "huge"
teddy bear
i don't recall where i got him
i just remember he was such a good listener
i could alwayz tell him anything at all
and he would never overreact.
sometimes when i didn't even have the words
he would just read my mind for me
and cuddle me to sleep.
i could even cry. he wouldn't tell.
my secretz were safe with him.
he disappeared one day
i asked where he went?
the "answer" from my very unimagined mother:
"i had to give him away because i paid for him
but your daddy lied about that...he gave the teddy to you and took all the credit for it".
*me rolling my eyes and satisfied imagining that somewhere out there,
teddy woulda rolled his eyes too.*
i encountered invisible characters galore
in various mystery adventure novels
for a time
until after being accused/insulted/condemned
one too many times for having my
"head in the clouds"
and then having my cherished book collection
thrown out because some of them came from a relative
believed to have "demonic" connections.
so i ventured beyond the "clouds"...
and well into the "heavens"
my next invisible friend
was a God.
we were friendz for oh about 25 years i guess.
he too was a good listener.
this in & of itself was an answer to my earliest
"prayers" for peace of mind
ya know, back when i wuz 4 or 5.
i've never regretted knowing him
instead of santa.
he "helped" me thru a lot of stuff
and i wuz very grateful.
this was one "invisible friend"
i would have died for.
we finally went our separate wayz
about a year ago.
but imaginary friendships
continue to flourish for me.
thanks in no small way to jw.com
not unlike an episode of
"the polka-dot-door"...
(wuz that the show?)
u know, where they look thru the mirror and say...
i see Naeblis and cowboy and sixy and ona and prisca and d8ta and teejay and mac...
i see scully and butal and xanex and puffsrule and simon and yeru and plh and comf...
i see farkel and logical and hygh and ballistic and larc...
and i see YOU!
lol.
this place is imaginary friend paradise!!
except maybe for the infighting...
but itz mostly all tolerable.
some would think me slightly nutz
to enjoy these virtual palz so much
these imaginary friendz though invisible
have been an understanding hearing ear
they have let me laff and cry with them
they have made me truly hold them dear.
u r all luvable
i hope u know that.
i appreciate every last one of you
and your contributions here and in chat.
this means YOU!
you have been a safe place
for me to express my thoughts + feelings + fears + triumphs.
your simultaneous
invisibility
AND
reality
has made a fantastic sounding board
and excellent practise for me
in learning a whole new culture
helping me in a very real way
irl.
itz great just knowing yer "out there"
thanks eh.
SPAZ