Warlock
JoinedI was baptized at Dodger Stadium in the 1980's. I was appointed as a Ministerial Servant not too long afterwards. Eventually, the requirements of being a Jehovah's Witness wore me down. I became inactive for the first time, and after a few years, I became active again. This happened two more times in my J.W. life. The problem was, I thought I was the problem. I felt like I had some kind of personal defect that was not allowing me to feel like I belonged. I felt like an outsider, even though I was in. Finally, I came to the conclusion that the problem was with the Organization and the people in it, not me. I tried so hard to live up to the requirements as set up by the Org. No movies beyond the Societies recommendations. No music beyond the Societies recommendations. No entertainment beyond the Societies recommendations. Guess what? To my dismay, I found out that there were brothers, and sisters, who were regularly participating and indulging in the things I was so fiercly trying to fight and purge out of my system, having come from the world. How do you think that made me feel? How do you think it makes me feel just writing this? I have been posting here since May 2006 as you can see. I started lurking in Nov. 2005. Today is August 15, 2006 which is how long it has taken me to finally write this down. Should I have let the conduct of others affect me so? I don't know, but it did affect me in that way. I have come to the conclusion that there are too many man made rules in the Org. What are we, living under the Law Covenant? Nope. Do we live under Bible principles guided by our Christian Conscience? Yes, because that is what the Bible teaches. To me, the Bible takes precedent over ANYONE'S teachings and rules of conduct, and where this will lead me, I do not know. Thanks for reading. If I make any updates on this profile, I will be sure to date them for you, the reader. Warlock